I had a particularly bad day with pain and was offered a beer which eventually turned into six, I rarely touch alcohol now. I had asked my house mate if he had ever accepted being in a wheel chair. He had been in it since he was 17 from a vehicle accident and was now 35. He had not. He did not like remembering or being reminded, or even seeing other people in a chair. This was important to me as a mirror to understand my own health problems. Ive had to learn how to walk three times now, its been 18 months since the severed quad tendon and still cant walk distance. Some days on the bike I have to force myself through the pain.

I had to ask myself if I had ever accepted my limitations and I think not, its those limitations that make me push myself more. Three you tube clips made me ask these questions. The first from Frogman Tactical that said “Train at the pace you can move at, embrace the burdens you have”. The second was I reached out to Ryan Humiston to try and get a work out routine for rehab. Its been four months at the gym and Im finally starting to build muscle again after loosing ten kilo to covid, but I want to take it to a different level now than I ever have before. Then thirdly after Ryans talk on how to become motivated i watched the link to Phil Hansen Embrace the shake where he talked about needing to be limited to become limitless.

Limited to become limitless! So in my life Ive crushed four discs,2 back operations, broken my sternum 3 times, had 2 bilateral lung transplants, 12 years of my life on an oxygen bottle, throat cancer, right shoulder cancer,right shoulder dislocations a whole other story in pain, having a lump taken off my head this week, and severed my quad tendon, spent 6 months in a leg brace then 6 months of rehab trying to bend the leg again, 16 days in hospital with covid and pneumonia loosing 10 kilo of body weight and went from 9 kilo bicep curls to 2 kilo after three months of loosing my lung capacity. I’m now down to 60 percent.

Yet I’m still doing 2.5 hours at the gym twice a week and between 6 and 15 kms on the bike each day and fitter than most people I know. I was training in more than 5 different martial arts after my last transplant. My limitations make me limitless!