Force Yourself To Work ( Discipline )

” Work is not optional ! Its a requirement , a necessity . its something you commit to regardless of your internal state. This is the essence of discipline. Discipline is doing what needs to be done. Whether you feel like it or not. Its an internal standard that you refuse to be compromised. Disciple is built its trained like a muscle and like any muscle it grows stronger the more you use it. The more you override the voice to stop the quieter it becomes. You simply do what needs to be done. Its about persistence.”

Ive had days where everything in me screamed to stop not get out of bed. my lungs have been full of crap from fluid or infections. My lung capacity has fallen to below 60% and yet I still make the physios wheel in an excersise bike and force myself to climb on it and do 2.5 minutes. Then rest 5 minutes then do another 2.5 minutes until I reach 20 minutes in total. I then spend three hours in bed totally exhausted before climbing back on that f*kn bike again. To start the cycle of 2.5 minutes again. This is the only way I can get off an oxygen hose and the only way I can get out of hospital and the only way I can lead any sort of reasonable life. I have no option.

(This will not break me, The only way forward is through. This is the test that most people fail).

I’m at the gym everyday, if I don’t then my lung capacity lowers. My knee seizes up. It’ll take longer to get back on the road to finish off my training courses. I found a light job doing gardening at a small coffee shop. Mainly watering and a little weeding. As my strength returns light landscaping and planting a herb garden. I get lunch and coffee out of my effort. I no longer feel right taking cash for my labour. I cant work as hard as I once could. This gives me focus, gives me sense of fulfillment for the day, a purpose. I then train at the gym working up my splits to the 20 minutes. By the end of the day my leg aches, my arm aches, my shoulder aches but I have achieved something with my day, when I’m not writing or doing little projects for the blog or on my van build. The plants keep me calm, the smell of the mint enters my soul as the water sprays over it.

“Struggle is temporary, but quitting is permanent. The pain of discipline is nothing compared to the pain of quitting. Never loose sight of the goal. See beyond your current circumstance. What ever obstacles are in front of you they are not the end. They are simply part of the journey, they are the price you pay for the life you want to live. To struggle to endure, because every step you take no matter how small no matter of insignificant it feels is still a step forward”.

“The first battle you fight every day is with yourself. The moment you wake up there’s a choice. Give into the resistance or break through it. Your thoughts create your reality, The way you think determines how you act and how you act determines the life you build.The real test is can you push forward when every part of you wants to stop”.

Paraphrased from Jordon Peterson